Ok this is really weird. Completely and utterly bizarre, but i just cant seem to get it out of my head. Its playing in my mind, over and over again like a film reel so maybe if i put it into words it will finally go away.

After an utterly exhausting day in the office, my body just couldnt cope, and i fell asleep only a few hours after arriving home, skipping dinner and all, in favour of a short 'nap'. I awoke around 2am, as it is now.


This... dream or something... i havent dreamed in such a long time, and any that i recall in the past dissapear quickly after waking, so i find it strange that this one could be so vivid, and still so very clear and present in my mind. Especially since if it WERE to become a a movie... it would be a chick flick (and i cant stand those!)


But this is what i 'saw':


A young woman named Fae, who has worked as a part time waitress, after leaving school, for the last 3 years in a busy small cafe. Due to failing to get into a university course (any course) she is trying to find another job. But she has no image of self-worth, no dreams, no goals, no aspirations. So she is rejected from every interview she gets. She lives life from one simple day to the next. Her only worries are that she wont be able to pay her bills on time, and is there enough food for her to eat.

She doesnt keep any true 'friends' only acquaintences in different circles, people she uses (though not cruelly) to help her get by. She is a highly resourcful woman, but she has never been open with her emotions. And thus has never had a lover.

One morning she wakes up to find a young man in her bedroom, grinning at her from her doorway. Of course Fae freaks, but he just smiles and tells her that he's been sent to help her. She asked if he was from the housing comission, and he laughed and told her "I'm much better than that."

Change scenes to them 'walking' through many 'average' daily routines (shopping, cooking, working, walking, taking public transport etc - but anywhere there is a reflective surface, you can only see Fae) as he explains to her "I am your Fate. Every human being on this earth, no matter how high or low their status. No matter their gender, sexuality, age, race or religion, has a fate assigned to them. Whether they are destined for greatness or the pump at a petrol station in some back-water town, it is our job to help them manifest those destiny's." (as he says this, you can see him do things that manipulate what happens to her in her daily life. most particularly when helps her land a new job at a swish new office, gain some friends,and trips her into an elevator, sealing the door shut with his 'magic' and thus she meets a handsome co-worker.)



Scene change: - they are sitting on a park bench, talking.

"Whats your name?"

"Tabbris"

"So, does everyone have someone like you hovering over their shoulder 24 hours a day?" Fae asks him.

"Yes, and no. I told you everyone has a fate, and fates are all intertwined. You cannot reach your destiny without the influence of others. But i cannot see the fates of those others, even though i know they are there. We are hidden from our human charge and from each other, so that we do not become corrupt. Which keeps us to our true natures."

"Your natures?"

"Yes"

"...If you know what my fate is, why dont you just tell me so I can get it over with?"

"Because I dont know." he said sighing. "Not for sure. Its not like i'm given a post-it note with your name, address and destiny written on it that I can just hand over to you. We guide our charge by our own impulses."

"Impulses?"

"When you come to a crossroads in your life, a moment that plays a part that leads towards your destiny, we get a feeling. Its so incredibly strong, like an ache or some sort of electrical current within us that compels us to change something. Its painful, and it only goes after we have completed our task, and set you on to the path to the next crossroads. Mostly we are more like a muse or a concept a ghost that hovers over your conciousness, but we do become corporeal sometimes, if you need an extra push, but we are never allowed to reveal ourselves."

He looks at her. "The thing you have to remember Fae is that there are no co-incidences. There is only inevitabilty."

"So... i was meant to meet you then?"

He smiles

"Tabbris, why is it that I can see you?"

The smile falls. "...I dont know."



Scenes change:

Fae and her new Friends are gathered in the office's cafeteria.

"Whats with you Fae?"

"What do you mean?"

"I dont know how to put my finger on it but you've changed. Its like you're a different person."

"Maybe I am."

"Theres someone new in your life isnt there?"

Fae looks over her shoulder, pretending to glance out a window. She sees Tabbris standing there. "Yeah, i guess there is."



Scene change: to within the office, that handsome co-worker she got locked in the elevator with asks her out, and blushing like a school girl, she accepts. Tabbris broods in the corner. His fingers twitching with bolts of electricity.

He accompanies her on her date (of course) manipulating his own power and attempting to ruin her date with his constant interference. The handsome co-worker brushes it all off with a good natured laugh, but Fae is mortified and runs home.

She lashes out at Tabbris.

"What the hell is the matter with you?! He's a nice guy! I was finally getting somewhere! Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is to be virgin at my age? Fuck T, why did you have to do that!"

"Because I cant stop thinking about you!"

"You have to think about me, its your job."

"Not like this. Not this much! We're not supposed to..."

She looks at him, waiting for him to finish.

"Fae. You are all i ever think about. All day long. I couldnt stand the thought of... you realise I would BE there when you two... god I cant... I couldnt... How could you put me through that?"

"What do you mean 'ut you through that'? You could just close your eyes and ears for while!"

he shakes his head "I know i am only meant to be here to guide you. That you are only meant to be my charge. But I cant help this feeling anymore. Fae theres an ache inside of me," he took her hand and placed it over his heart "and it never goes away. No matter what I say or do there's nothing I can do to sate it."

Her mouth falls slightly open.

"I'm in agony whenever I see you with someone else."

"Tab i dont..."

"I cant stand it. I dont want this feeling anymore!

Fae stands there, she can feel his heartbeat through her fingers.

"I dont want anyone else to touch you. Ever"

She looks up at him.

"Because, you are mine."

He kissed her.




Scene change to them lying in bed, fae lying on her stomache, her back exposed, Tabbris on his side, his fingers slowly running up and down over her bare arm.

"What happens when I fulfill my destiny?" she asked him.

"I will be summoned back." he answers simply.

"Then I will fight it with everything I have."

He looks at her, his eyes wide with fear and hope.

"Stay with me. All my life."








And THATS when I woke up... man i am sooooo glad to get that out of my head!

BTW "Tabbris" is the Angel of Self Determination - He presides over free will inspires within us the ability to chose creative alteratives.